Giving Birth is the Labor and delivery that is often thought of as the most painful aspect of parenting,
It hurts and you go into it KNOWING it's gonna hurt.
I recently realized that there is another labor and delivery in child rearing that is much harder and more painful.
It's the labor of raising them right, and delivery of letting them go out into the world with out you by their side.
Worker #2 graduated ARMY Boot-camp 2 weeks ago.
He came home for 5 days following graduation.
Then he left for his "home base" in Washington state, where he quickly found out he will deploy to Afghanistan in February.
This is where the mother in me freaks out!
It seems that literally overnight you go from Mommy, who fixes things, kisses the boo-boo's, and makes sure her children are safe and sound at all times to someone who has no control or say-so in the well-being of her child.
You are expected to be standing on the sidelines, chest puffed out with pride, waving your American flag because your son is amazingly brave, he is patriotic, he is an American Soldier!
While I AM indeed So very proud of him.
I am also SO very scared.
Never... EVER has there been a time in his life with me that I haven't known where he was....
Never EVER has there been a time I didn't know he was ok...
He has never been somewhere that I could not contact him or call to make sure he was ok...
And.... Never EVER was someone actually shooting at him!
How am I supposed to do this?
How can things be ok?
How can we be a family with one of us in harms way?
How will we laugh, knowing he might be "out there" somewhere scared?
How will we sleep without visions of what might be happening in some sandy place on the other side of the world at that very second?
How can everything go on as "usual" when I know my child is in danger?!?
How do I DO THIS?
THIS is the Labor and Delivery that really hurts!
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